Thursday, January 14, 2010

nomination

I won’t let you do it, F*** suicide

We have always been there for each other

Always working for something better

Through all the struggles and hardships we have always persevered

I’ve learned so much from you and I hope I’ve taught you something

Because blood doesn’t determine family

We are brothers and I don’t turn my back on family

I live for my friends… for you

Now you must choose to live for me

For my sake for my well being

Seriously without you who would tell me to shut the f*** up when I bitch about stupid shit

We are different from other friends because we do have an understanding

And no one will take that from us

And I won’t let you take it either

Never stop fighting because little victories lead to bigger ones and with that you can win the war

I swear to god if ever see you with that gun again I won’t hold back, I’ll kick your ass for being so selfish

I’m trying to help you brother, it’s the trust we have that you let me closer than anyone else but yet you still have this wall up and stupid excuses

You say “I didn’t want to bother you with stupid sh**” but don’t you see if that stupid sh** got you to this point then it’s not stupid and you need to talk about it. You say “life is the joke that isn’t funny it just pisses you off”

I know you feel numb to the world right now and you have no emotions or cares and all you feel is the squeezing tighter and tighter around you until there isn’t any air left to breathe its unbearable.

That’s why I’m here like I always have been, because even though the situation is different I have been right there too with the pistol to my temple so close to the end and everything inside you screaming F*** THE WORLD!!! But I let it go and walked away and I will make you do the same even if I have to drag you kicking and screaming.

Because even though pain and depression is all we have ever known its not all that’s there we just have to hold out and find it

I can only do so much. I can help you up off the ground you are the one who has to keep walking, because life is the joke that isn’t funny but when has that stopped us before? You didn’t just figure that out, we’ve known it all along.

Never forget the past that made you who you are

Don’t look to far ahead because you lose sight of what’s right in front of you

What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger, so by this point you’re strong as F***. Don’t waste it, use it get over this and move on. Be better than the bullsh** that brings you down.

Never forget!

F*** suicide!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

I won't let you do it, F*** suicide

We have always been there for each other

Always working for something better

Through all the struggles and hardships we have always persevered

I’ve learned so much from you and I hope I’ve taught you something

Because blood doesn’t determine family

We are brothers and I don’t turn my back on family

I live for my friends… for you

Now you must choose to live for me

For my sake for my well being

Seriously without you who would tell me to shut the f*** up when I bitch about stupid shit

We are different from other friends because we do have an understanding

And no one will take that from us

And I won’t let you take it either

Never forget the past it made you who you are

Don’t look to far ahead because you lose sight of what’s right in front of you

Never stop fighting because little victories lead to bigger ones and with that you can win the war

i love you brother

1.is there enough in this one or do i have to add more?

Thursday, December 10, 2009

a cheap box of wine and an expensive botle of jack

i sat there on that pile for hours
the room was spinning
the ground was geting closer
closer
closer
closer
next thing i know im at home
2 days later
they found me with a broken nose
face down in my own blood
they asked what happened
why did this happen
he disrespected me so
i showed him what happens to people who do
such things to me or the people i care about
turns out it wasent just him
there were 4 of them
2 were in the hosiptal for 3 days after
1 ran before it started
the last one will never do what he did again
cause he will get whats comeing to him
and this is the price of growing up to fast
i never thought i would end up looseing so much
so young
f*** this sh**

what should i do to make this better?

Sunday, November 22, 2009

for school

made this for school....i hate it